Breaking The Chains to Create A Path: The story “Freedom From Bondage” made me think back to my childhood and about the years that went by as my addiction progressed.
I was always the baby of the family and when my parents divorced, I felt angry and hurt. I got the “I don’t care” attitude about life in general. No one else cared, so why should I. I think my addiction started then.
I would drink and smoke pot with friends, and always felt better after using. I guess I was so high that I didn’t feel the hurt. I know now, rather I am learning now, that I can’t keep building walls around the problems that life brings. I have got to face them head on and if I continue to have drugs and alcohol in my life I will only be existing instead of living the life that I want to live; to do that I have to be honest with myself, happy with myself, and continue working the recovery program.
At the time of this writing, I was only in the program for a little under 60 days and I can honestly say that already it has help me to deal with a lot of issues that I had locked away so tightly. I thought I will never have to deal with them but I don’t have the drugs to help now because of me being in the program. Therefore, I have to deal with them without drugs assisting me in locking them away and not having to face these awful feelings any longer.
“Freedom From Bondage”, that’s what its all about. Freeing yourself from the bondage of many years of hurt and pain, instead of only building walls that sooner or later have to come down anyway.
In Breaking The Chains, I am reminded of the paths I have taken through excerpts from old ancient library book called Path:
Created We The Path
Upon Our Separation
From The Infinite One
The Way Out Is The Way Back
One Way Back
Walk Back.
Walk Must We In Our Own Excrement.
Created We All Obstacles
All Must Be Met
As We Follow The Road Home
The Path Is.
To Return To The One
Is Death To The Separate Self.
A Great Fight It Will Wage
Great Pain It Will Inflict
Only Those Who Have Learned
The Greater Pain
Lies In Separation From The One
Will Choose The Spiritual Path
Many Paths There Are
All Spiritual Paths Lead To The One.
As Closer You Return,
Recognize You Will
Your True Self
Your True Family
Recognize You Will
The Face Of A Stranger
Judge Not The Path Of Another
Learn To Understand
That You May Not Understand
The Path Of Another
Judge The Path Of Another
Only To Judge And Determine
Your Own Path
Never Condemn Another
Condemn Only Action
The Path Takes Us Through
Walls Of Fire Burning Us Away
Sharp Teeth Ripping Way Our Flesh
Why Then, Am I Not Harmed?
The Path Is Beset With Traps
The Wind Flowers Draw Us
With Their Sweet Perfume
Thorn Prick At Our Feet
Mud Drags Us Down
Above And Below
Rocks Loosen And Fall.
Walk In The Footsteps Of Those
Who Have Found The Way Before You.
The Ease Or Difficulty One Experiences
While Waking The Path To Oneness
Is Directly Determined By The Degree
Of Their Humility And Unselfish Love
Pain And Pleasure
Are Swings In The Arc Of A Pendulum
To The Degree The Pendulum
Swings Into Pleasure
It Will Swing Into The Same Degree Of Pain
Many Paths Preserve Themselves
That Lead To Pleasure With Free Will We Choose
Choose Not Pleasure And You Will Create Not Pain
Choose Not Pleasure And Pain Will Chase You Not
Accept The Little Pleasure That Come To You
Endure The Pain That May Come To You With
With Loving-Suffering Patience.
Hear Me Of Man
Turn From The Darkness Of Night
Turn Towards The Love Of Light
Know That Your Mind
Leads Your Direction
Turn From The Thoughts
That Leads Astray
Turn To The Thoughts
Of Giving And Light
They Lead You To Oneness
Not Darkness Of Night
Find Not The Great Path
In Power And Glory
Find It You Will In The Dust At Your Feet
With Head Bowed In Regret And Humility.
Ask Then The Universal One To Guide You.
With Heart That Ready To Serve All It Shows
Pray That Your Will Be That Of The One
Pray The One
Send To You One Who Is One
To Show You The Light
And Illuminate Your Soul
Seek God First
And All Else Will Come To You
As You Walk Your Path
